Well..

There are moments that are not related to the nightly perception of certain things, because the thoughts were formed in my head even before that. But after I finished filming yesterday, it became somehow easier. That is, something “switched” a little inside me. And we went further. What was it?..

Today I came across a song, a fragment of which I had heard before and really wanted to hear it in its full version. As it turned out later, it had already been released a month ago. Would this communication have been there if I had heard it then? Very unlikely. But now I caught myself thinking that I perceive this song differently.

When they did the coronavirus patch, at first you had a fever, as if you were sick, and then it became easier. And so I perceive this song in about the same way. Although it talks about getting rid of someone, I perceive it as getting rid of a part of you that, like a disease, eats you from the inside. Your fears, doubts. It’s strange that the thought “you had a chance to refuse, and now you even see why you should have done it. But the ticket was bought. So try not to jump off the train while it’s moving…”

Answering the question (to myself and to you at the same time) why are these attempts for me, why not just continue living as before – I’ll explain. A certain type of people comes across quite rarely in our lives. They are like those swans, if they become attached to each other, then almost until the end of their lives. That is, this is the stability that you always look for in others. I see how she relates to a person who disappeared from her life a long time ago (yes, I’m sure that was written about that person), and I understand that this is exactly the type of person. But, at the same time, this emotion in you…when you are happy that there is such a person on one side. When you want her to be only yours/with you. This is not normal. It is not healthy. It will never be like this, because a person has her own husband, family. That is, you have to accept the fact that for her you remain exactly the part that she values ​​in you – no more.

In general, remembering her last post, there were/are three people who filled her. This is a friend with whom she has been since childhood. An unknown person, let’s assume that friend, and… me. Let’s draw parallels that this is a response to my post. Let’s assume that. But then it is strange that the man was not mentioned. But I don’t want to go in this direction…

I’m talking about the fact that your importance in a person’s life is still (at least for now) at a level that is higher than many others. But you only come to this in such posts. Later…but it also helps.

You can’t be everything to a person, just like a person is to you. Even if you live together and have lived your whole life. Because that’s not how it works. Only a certain part that you occupy in the life of this or that person. But a very important part. You have already seen what happened to the person without you. You have already heard what happened after you communicate again. This is the main thing. Hold on to this very thing…