Any dead ended road, one step closer to home…

A few months ago I had a creative work for the song Overgrown. Actually, the title of the post is a quote from it. What has changed in these few months?

Then I said that I had outgrown the person who inspired me. But here I am, we communicate with her, life goes on… and perhaps it would be more appropriate to say that I have outgrown the sadness that remained. I know that music does not accidentally become attached to me, and if today I wanted to listen to this wonderful song all day, then it means something. I was driving in the rain, one earbud was dead, but it was playing from the other…

I like these lines

“And I’ve been hiding for so long
With only darkness every day
I’m gonna crawl to the morning sun
And let it warm every part of me..”

And I also like the feeling that you have someone to protect. At the same time, the only question you ask yourself is “..protect from whom? From yourself?..” – and there is some truth in that.

I am learning to live with myself, not to make past mistakes, to find a new path each time. Leading, if not to something that will be with me for the rest of my life, then at least supporting it in the future path, walking side by side. Let’s be honest, I have a living example of an emotional person with whom we were on the same wavelength. Yes, now we correspond with her only from time to time (once every few months or so) and we have somewhat moved away from each other. But this was an example when, after discussing uncomfortable moments and how we should coexist with each other, we continued to exist in the plane of this world with the hashtag “we”.

There is also another person with whom we ended and started communication twice. That is, now we communicate for the third time. One of her works could be observed recently on my work board. It was a very personal work and I really appreciate it. I asked myself how it is possible to love several people at the same time. That is, are you not deceiving yourself in this? And I realized that I love every person for something special.

Daria for the correspondence that we had and I realized that in my life there can be a person with whom you communicate carefully so as not to hurt feelings and it can be mutual. It was a very strong connection and I am glad that we met her in reality.

Alexandra for always accepting me for who I am. She may not accept others, but…her creativity, her world – it always saturated me. And we joke with her on spicy topics, and she is the second person after Aaron who can send me a photo of a man’s penis and we will laugh together with her))

Actually, I love Aaron because he and I are always on the same wavelength and…this is my longest online communication in my life. I am proud of him and the fact that we are familiar with him.

I love my wife because she allows me to be who I am and always stays by my side. It is thanks to her that I can freely communicate with people regardless of gender, and…love them without being judged for it.

I love Ingenious-Kat for her inspiring creativity. For being there for me in difficult moments and…for bringing Kas and I back together. And I am also delighted with their SOLNOKTIS works. You are magical!

The magical girls drawn by raz0rbladecandy are in my heart forever. I have the Lovely Grls album, she is one of the two people (the other is Kat) whose works are in it the most. And she is also the first person whose work I supported on Deviantart ^_^

Actually, Kas…this is the strangest experience I have had in recent years. But she herself knows why, what and how. Those who have been following my work for the last year also know this. I love her for her creativity, for her inspiration. She is the first person I openly call my muse, because that is probably how I feel about her. As a person who inspires with his work, thoughts. And it is very important to preserve it. And it is nice that it is mutual.

I love each of you for something of your own, and each of you fills me with something of your own. Communication with one inspires communication with another, and this creates an ecosystem in which I live. In which I feel comfortable. Which is outside the real world.

Thank you! <3