Supposedly (v01, lovely)

Well…if she made a version of her work for this song, why not mine too?..

In general, this version (mine) was supposed to be very bloody. But…I wanted to add light. In every sense. In the lyrics of the song there is a phrase: “It tears me apart, I can’t feel your heart”, and I got hooked on it. And I played it in my own way. In neon light, the heart glows, without it it doesn’t. That is, by changing the lyrics – only at the right angle or, more precisely, with light, you will “feel the heart”.

In general, this song has been associated with one person for me. Since the moment of our divorce. In a certain sense, it completely corresponds to what happened between us. I don’t know what is sadder, this fact, or the fact that she perceived it the same way.

I would like to end the “pain line” with this work and start creating something new. Inspired. Because I understand that this is a path to nowhere. Both for creativity and for our relationship. Moreover, I would never want to create original work, because it would mean something bad for both of us.

There are moments in life when everything falls apart and does not go the way you would like. Internally, I am experiencing just such a moment now. And it is very difficult. But I believe that together we will get out of all this. Sometimes births are difficult. And if this is the birth of a long relationship, so what. You just have to survive this difficult period. On the other hand, my life experience had an example of a birth that ended in the death of my child. Not abstract. So you should hope for the best, but be prepared for anything. Simply because in your life you can never be 100% sure of something in relation to other people. Sad, but a fact.

“I can’t forget your face
I can’t forget the way it aches
Yeah, I still care about you
And I’m holding on ’cause I’m lonely too..”