I’m your victim and I like it, I like it..

Apart from unexplored things, such as sex with people of a different skin colour or what taste in feijoa, the question of how girls from the other side of the world communicate in general remains a mystery to me.

That is, I know the behaviour of our people. The reaction to certain things and in general. I understand the root cause and nature of behaviour. And here is a real mystery.

I am interested, but I do not pay more attention than necessary. That is, I do not try to somehow specifically maintain the conversation. But the peculiarities of my character almost ended communication again (and this too). Because well… I do not know. Because I am me. Do I need any more reasons for Sa? I do not think so..

Sometimes it seems that I have become too much of a man. I have grown out of a “boy” and become an adult. And if a boy falls in love with everyone and everything, then a man perceives everyone, at best, neutrally. Because you yourself are already tired of all those loves. Because the only thing you want to fall in love with right now is someone’s creativity.

I see that Nora is a business woman who has chosen work above all else in her life. I’m not sure if she has a boyfriend or a husband. Not because she communicates with me – it’s just that usually girls who make a career rarely think about relationships. At least until a certain point. They need to be “here and now”. To live in the moment that is. They follow their clearly defined path, and in some other universe we would never have met her, and walking past – she would not have paid attention to me, because I am too simple, and I to her – because she is too “at work”. Therefore, I don’t really understand what I will get from this communication.

Perhaps this is the case when you want to go up, hug, and say “sorry, but we are too different even for simple virtual communication”.

Let’s make predictions – she listens to classical music, and… these are all my predictions.

Our life is funny because of what I am. A simple person. In general, without any education, with little knowledge in various fields. I am very loved for my attitude to work and the way I do my job. But in general, I am the one who is called a “simpleton”. And there is her, a business girl who has achieved much more than me, and, perhaps, more than those who read this blog. She has a whole universe of achievements and a whole shelf with trophies with various achievements. But this does not make her interesting to me. She can show me her profile photos, training videos. But this does not open the soul of a person to me. And I love the soul. What is inside. What makes a person a person. I would like to fall in love with someone, only to suffer like before, from the fact that this relationship will never happen and to independently destroy the universe that she herself created.

At one time, I was told the words “I love you, but we will never be together.” Maybe it somehow got stuck in my subconscious, and the time has come when I want to say these words in every case.

Maybe I just want to see a reflection of myself in someone. It’s not about interests or anything else. That’s how Aaron is, whose creative works I get a kick out of. I don’t care how it would be perceived in our environment that one man likes the work of another. It’s hard to explain to people from other countries how it is perceived in our country. I want to burn with people. That is, if we imagine a candle – it has a wick made of many thin threads. And I want the people around me to be the same threads, and I saw meaning in every person.

I’m sad that I can’t love a person simply because they exist and show some interest. However, should I do this?..