The last few days my head has been filled with all sorts of nonsense, like assembling a battery for an electric bike or making a box that will cover the heating pipes near the boiler. Actually, these are useful things, but somehow they feel “not right”. It seems like I have to constantly post something somewhere, like that model whose earnings depend on it.
It’s sad that I’m not doing anything to get better conditions at my future place of work, on the other hand, today I thought that if we talk about a “family business”, it’s either trade (from my mother) or repairs of something (from my father). That is, purely technically, you (most likely) will work in either the first or the second direction. And I think that “somewhere out there” I would be in demand, provided that I knew the language and took at least some minimal courses. Time will tell. I still believe that it’s better to learn a language in other country, than to try now and make a bunch of mistakes. But here too, time will tell how it was better.
And I haven’t learned to “switch off” when I need to. That is, when I don’t need to “do something,” but to switch off and do nothing. Even if it’s playing games, or crafting something, I just want to forget about the “importance of the world around me” and immerse myself in myself. Do what I want, not what I have to.
Summer is a difficult time, from all sides. On the one hand, there is always not enough money, on the other hand, there is a feeling that you are constantly running out of time somewhere. Plus, it gets dark quite late for creativity. On the other hand… I would like there to be more warm days, and I could go somewhere in the forest with a tent for the whole day, as planned. A kind of mini-trip. And when the weather is good and the second battery is ready, I will test them by going to the nearest settlement. It is not far from here, about 25 kilometres. The battery should be enough for the trip there and back. But this is in theory, in practice who knows how it will be. However, it would be a very interesting trip precisely because of the reality that you can get there by bicycle with the cost of the road being a penny.
Whatever it was, this year should be the most productive in terms of the number of things done. And I hope that before leaving I will be able to put the house in order and go with a calm soul, at least, to earn money, and there we will see what and how. I don’t want to guess anything. I would just like to live a different life for a little while. Without war and news….
Saint Creature 
