Intimate Diary

This post is about why a man fucked himself, how he did it, and with what. So be careful if you dare to read it.

From time to time I like to give myself some attention in a sexual sense. In other words, I take out some sex toys and start giving myself pleasure. I guess we’ll start with the toys.

Toys

Today I received a brand new glass butt plug. First of all, I used it in a…creative way. Yes, yes. I like to take glass sex toys and take pictures with them. People usually don’t even realize what they’re liking (remember that moment from Fight Club and the movies where the dicks were glued in? Well, that’s it!)

This picture shows a transparent glass butt plug in a glass of water. Is it visible? Well…if you look closely, it’s possible, but in general? 🙂

Actually, there should have been a warning here. So…
Getting anal pleasure can be bad for your anus, your social status, and your job status. Especially if your boss finds out about such an experience. So take care of your anus and don’t do what I did, no matter how bad it sounds to you!

Toys…

Let’s go from left to right. The first candidate for my ass is… a Chinese “man”, whose parameters I won’t name, because the link where I ordered it no longer works. If we take the average penis size as 16 cm long and 4 cm in diameter, then it is a little longer in length and a little thicker in diameter. But here’s the most interesting thing – it is made of quite pleasant, soft silicone. I was very surprised when I received this toy. And I continue to be surprised every time it enters me. The thing is that this guy seems bigger from the outside than it feels inside. This does not mean that you can take him from the very beginning as the “first candidate for your ass”, but for an experienced person he can bring a lot of pleasant sensations.

I really like how his head enters me. After the head, he has a slightly thinner part of the shaft, which has a certain expansion. And then there is a narrowing again. Without strong training, he is able to enter completely, creating a feeling of internal fullness (not the desire to go to the toilet, but something… pleasant. It’s hard to explain).

Next up is a plug. It’s about 10 centimetres long. The thickness at the widest part is 4.5-4.6 centimetres. About the size of a rather large penis. The thickness at the base is 2.5 centimetres. It’s both scary and exciting. I understood that it would be quite large. But I needed a plug that could stretch my hole so much that these two toys could enter me without any problems.

In general, the anal plugs that we are used to seeing on sale have a thin base. And… they don’t give anything. That is, yes, you can put this plug on and go to the store. Get some hot sensations from the understanding that no one knows that you have something in you now. But that’s all. Because real plugs start with a diameter that will allow you to stretch your hole more than it is in its usual state. And in my opinion, it’s not about the diameter of the plug itself, but rather the diameter of the base. What’s the math here? Very simple. If you want a penis the size of a finger to enter your vagina, the base of the plug should be about the same size. Maybe a little smaller. But the wider part should be even larger. With proper and gradual insertion, you will have a minimum of discomfort.

The next toy is already branded. This is a model from Exotic Erotics, namely Werewolf Small. Despite the word “small” in the name, the size of a Werewolf knot is 4 by 5 centimetres. There is a mini model with a knot of 4.12 centimetres and an XXL model with a knot diameter of 11.55 centimetres. That’s a hell of a lot, but we’re not talking about it now.

As you can see from the appearance of the toy, anatomically it is something like a dog’s penis. Now the world of adult toys has reached a point where few people are interested in the usual shapes, and the market has begun to offer toys in the form of animal genitals. Is there something scary about this? I don’t think so. When someone puts their deodorant or a cucumber inside themselves, it’s more scary, because, firstly, it’s unpleasant, and secondly, you can eat the cucumber. But you won’t eat a dildo in the form of a mythical werewolf’s penis. Logically? 🙂

We are one of the few people who have a certain collection of toys of various brands. Prices can average from 35-40 dollars and somewhere up to 100-120. For some people in America, the value of their collections of toys for sexual pleasure is as much as a good old car.

Why

I think the question of why is quite stupid. I have many answers to it, why I do it. Lying in the bathroom after an orgy with two cocks, I asked myself – what do you feel. And I thought that this is a borderline feeling between femininity and masculinity. That is, a cock enters you, which is more typical of women. It often happens that a cock enters both of your holes, thereby you create a certain feeling of humiliation. You show yourself weak. One who can be raped. But, rather, not in a bad way, but when it gives you pleasant sensations. In general, let’s talk about the feeling.

Feeling

The main question that a woman asks a man who offers her anal sex is whether the man has tried to get fucked like that himself? And the man is lost at this moment. But is it all that scary?

In the previous paragraph, I mentioned the word “raped”, and I thought about the fact that rape is any process that causes discomfort to another person and more. If we want there to be no pain – preparation is needed. Believe me – no one has ever died from a finger smeared with good lubricant that got into … the anus. I will say even more – using the right lubricant will allow you to have anal sex almost without certain, dirty, moments. In my case, I really like silicone-based lubricant. It resembles massage oil or something similar. If water-based lubricant dries quickly on the skin, then silicone or oil-based (oh my, you can use ordinary cooking oil!) cover the skin with a film that lasts for a long time. This lubricant gives the skin elasticity, thanks to which your hole will be able to take in even more than you could imagine.

In addition to lubrication, the sequence of actions, caution, and most importantly – relaxation are also important. Because if you suddenly decide that you don’t want to – your ring will squeeze, and no matter what is inserted there – it will cause you discomfort. When I inserted my new plug, I did it gradually – gradually expanding the hole. From time to time, lubricant was added, because it is also absorbed into the skin. And the plug entered me perfectly. Although if I had taken a penis with a diameter of 3.5-4 centimetres (the plug, let me remind you, is 4.5-4.6) and entered “without warning” – I would have felt pain. So the question is not how much experience you had “before”. It is important to want it. And if you want it – there will be no problems at all. In general, I think it’s quite fair that a man should put into himself everything he plans to put into his girlfriend. Because that’s the only way you’ll understand what she’s feeling and whether it’s causing her any unpleasant feelings.

How

Having lubricated the head of the plug with silicone lubricant, I began to insert it into myself little by little. As a person who is used to these sensations, I did not feel any unpleasant sensations. In general, if you do it gradually, expanding your hole – there are two most difficult moments. When the plug is completely inside you (through a slight tension in the widest place), and when you try to take it out of yourself, realizing that the diameter is huge. But if it is already inside you – give yourself a little time, and you will have pleasant sensations. This is not the feeling of being filled with that rubber member that I mentioned above, but it is something pleasant somewhere inside you. It is especially pleasant if you warm such a plug in warm water beforehand. It will give a feeling of warmth spreading over you.

The base of the plug is quite wide and it allowed you to look inside yourself. It is quite a strange experience when you see yourself from this side. But at the same time, it causes a certain excitement from understanding something…wrong. In my life, I have done a lot of things, from the point of view of sexual self-knowledge, but the feeling of something secret and wrong remains even now. And you want to be wrong. The worse things you do to yourself – the more, as it were, you cleanse yourself of something that has been weighing you down lately. If you can draw parallels with the fact that we empty the cat’s litter box to get rid of processed food – anal caresses of this plan allow us to empty ourselves from bad thoughts and difficult moments in life.

From time to time I took out the plug, stretching myself with the widest part, and put it back in. I like these feelings when it slides inside you. From unpleasant moments – from time to time gases accumulate, which must be released. This is provided that you have not previously cleaned. But everything else… it’s like a ritual before something big.

When the time came to take out the plug, due to its size, it still turned out to be a little dirty. So, having emptied it, I began to do cleansing with an enema. Technologies do not stand still and now there are enemas that work in one direction. That is, they blow out air and water, but do not return dirty water from the intestine to the inside. It is both hygienic and pleasant. I have been familiar with enemas since my youth, when from time to time I also cleaned myself before doing something wrong. I like the feeling of water flowing out of me. Especially when you see that just clean water is flowing out of you. This means that you can move on, to the next base.

When the water leaked the last few times and it was clear that only water was coming out, it was strange to feel the water leaking out as soon as you took it in. Because you are already dilated. You are ready for something more. Your fingers penetrate inside, filling you. You want more and more… the understanding comes that you are already ready.

I didn’t test my luck, and first entered with a more familiar, anatomical member. It entered without any problems. As it should have, considering how much I had prepared myself beforehand. It’s always so surprising when such a rather large member enters you, and you can accept it. As a certain element of pride, this size doesn’t even feel like something unpleasant to you. And then it was our blue friend’s turn. Before that, I inserted a glass butt plug into myself again. This time it was freely entering me, showing how depraved a person I am. I remembered the last time when I wanted to feel two different members inside me, which would enter me in turn and together. The plug was taken out. My mouth filled the member that had recently been inside me. And the other one began to enter me from behind. At such moments you feel most humiliated, realizing how low you have sunk within the boundaries of your usual morality. But is there any morality at all where two big cocks fuck you at once?..

Filling itself more and more, the knot also went inside me. I wouldn’t say that it was completely easy, but this is (it seems) not the first time with it. However, this time it was much more pleasant. The new plug did its job, making my hole more pliable for something really huge. When the cock with the knot was inside me, I started masturbating, feeling how it expands my ass. In a sense, this feeling of complete fullness on the one hand, and orgasm on the other – gives you an unreal ecstasy. At this moment, not only your sperm comes out of you, but also everything dark and heavy that has been with you lately. You are cleansing yourself of everything unnecessary. As if renewing your body. As the cum dripped from my cock onto the floor, I slowly pulled out the cock that I had been hesitant about trying out just a few hours earlier. But it was he who made the night.

Aftertaste

There is a superstition that people who have anal sex have a big hole there. But from my own experience, I managed to make sure that if you don’t do it constantly, your hole narrows more and more and becomes so narrow that even inserting a finger becomes, somewhat, unpleasant. After I took a shower, even a finger couldn’t penetrate me. Not like a penis with a knot the size of an air freshener. Because our body recovers and takes on its usual shape.

Thinking about all this, I wondered – what does bisexuality mean in people? I mean, what if all bisexual people accept themselves as simultaneously belonging to one and the other gender? Is it just about sex? I created several surveys on the topic of how such people self-identify themselves in everyday life and in sex. As a man with a man, as a man with a woman. Is it only sex, and in other respects they are men. Because it would allow me to understand what or who I myself am.

Sometimes it’s nice to take some time for myself, and…do all the things that were described above. But, perhaps, this is the norm only for me, and you will look at it from a slightly different perspective. This is your right, and this is…my world 🙂