Stay

I didn’t have time to write anything before she blocked me. So…I’ll do it here. I don’t think she’ll ever read or see this, just let it be here.

I’m sad that it all ended so quickly, and I’m sad that I couldn’t live up to your expectations. All this time you were my muse in every sense, and most of the work that was created in the last month and a half was inspired by you. So I lost not just a friend, but a part of myself.

I fall in love with people to the point of forgetfulness, and this is my minus. And this is a problem for the people I fall in love with. Because some little thing can ruin everything. And I understand that communication could end in a few months or six months, but it happened now. And although you decided to end it, I think that there is also my fault in this. So…it’s a shame that it happened like this. I hope you meet more worthy people on your way than I did. And this work. They are dedicated to you. And to this situation. I once promised you that I would make a new version of this work. And here it is. This work symbolizes melting, although the song that I came up with for it is about the opposite.

I will not mention the nickname, because you believe that “what is supposed to happen will happen”. So if you were supposed to see it – you will see it, if not – it will just stay here. In memory of everything that was…

“You set it up to watch me fall
I considered you my friend
Now you don’t even care for me
Enough to make this right
So close the door on all our dreams
And never hurt again
Or you can just start making sense
And never wonder why

Trust is difficult
More like hypocritical
For me to believe that I could be
Unconditionally loved
When you’re on the mend
And so lost in all you cannot change
For the greater part of five years wasted

Stay
(And I cannot get back that time)
It wasn’t enough to stay
(Give me a reason I should try)
You were always afraid
(And I can’t find the words to say)
Of all the things you became
(To get us through this and I know it’s best to walk away)”