Things

There are things that don’t mean anything in themselves. They don’t have to have any deep meaning. They just are. For example, these ankle boots.

They are not needed for wearing, not for dancing (given that by their name and purpose they are often used for striptease dancing). They will not make money in any way. They are needed to complete the created image. Such a “cherry on the cake”.

I caught myself thinking that my creativity like this can’t bring income or any deeper meaning. It’s just done by me for me. To feel comfortable. That I create what I want.

I like the images that I create. They’re like characters in a book or a movie that you can touch. It’s not something imaginary, but quite real. Because you yourself regulate your behaviour and what is allowed. I’ve always been careful about sexualising my images. That is, they shouldn’t excite or show arousal. It should be something on the edge. And despite the fact that I purposefully ordered hosting in a place where almost anything is allowed, I’m in no hurry to post something that is inappropriate from my point of view. It should be a silly image. It should be a free image. It should be an image that people want to be friends with.

Sometimes I ask – “what does it mean to “love yourself?””. What exactly should it be about? And I think it’s about trying to understand yourself in all circumstances and being able to hear your inner self.