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Bad Habits

It just so happens that I realize my inner world in my work. And this is the very case when the emotion that was experienced was reflected in this picture, or rather, a series.

“It’s crazy
How did this start with fire?
Burning when I met you
With desire

It’s crazy
How did we get to this?
We both fell for something
We didn’t know exists..”

“I lost control
You had it
We were alone
Bad habits
We lost control
We had it
Now I’m alone
Bad habit…”(c)Nerv

Keep Falling

This is a very, very old photo, about 15 years old. It’s a hole in the roof of one of the abandoned factories in Odessa. No one knows what it’s for, but looking into it from above you see a complete void. I made a processed version of the photo and added the original.

When I read the lyrics of this song, I remembered that photo…

“I don’t wanna be scared
But I really don’t get
Why do we have to go?
I know so many ways
But I don’t wanna be saved
Why do we have to go?

I try to make my path
I don’t know why you left
We all need someone
I try to let it be
You try to make me see
We all need someone
It’s not easy letting go

Feelings that I don’t know
I’m looking for a sign below
I’m so heavy
We may die young, but that’s okay
We can’t go on
’cause we keep falling down down down
But that’s alright, it’s alright”

I really like the guitar part in this song…

Sometimes I feel like I keep falling into that black abyss in the photo..

Battle for the Sun

I, I, I will battle for the sun, sun, sun…

 

…And I, I, I won’t stop until I’m done, done, done
You, you, you are getting in the way, way, way
And I, I, I have nothing left to say, say, say…(c)Placebo


I completely accept my sexuality the way I am. Hints of narcissism? Probably. But where is the line between narcissism and healthy self-perception, when you don’t destroy yourself with conscience? ..

My thinness in one place and minimal muscles in another make me exactly the physique that I like. And earrings only add confidence to the image. Because everyone appreciates strength. And as long as you show it – you will be respected.

You have to pull out every element in our life. You can be anyone and look like anyone under one condition – the train of confidence and self-esteem must be at such a level that no one has any doubts that you should be exactly who you see yourself or pretend to be.

When we were in the hospital with one man (quite interesting, in my opinion) – we had an argument about how far I could go in my madness. I told him that if I wanted to and if there was a need, I would do anything to prove my point. He doubted it. In general, the last year was a year when people did not believe me. They questioned my words and thoughts. And they were wrong.

You should always be a person who has nothing to lose – because only in this case you will know your worth and go to the goal.

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