Суцільна утопія, знаю…

Але не можу не думати про це
Маленькі люди просто виживають
«Великі» будують на кістках
Навіщо це? (Навіщо це?)…(c)Redengy

I allowed myself the text and the title in Ukrainian, because it is impossible to translate it meaningfully. Therefore, I decided not to translate it. In general, the main thing in this excerpt is the very question “Why is this?..” – and I thought about it. Why do middle-aged married women seek communication with…other men? I can explain it easily – it has always been easier for me to communicate with women, a very rare man will “put up with” me. Or I him. When and how. It is harder with women. I will not measure it in percentages now, but I know that a certain percentage is connected with the desire to see that her “feminine power” is still working. That she can be interesting. I walk on a sharp edge with all these considerations. But I can’t do without them.

I think that middle-aged women see an opportunity to try something else, and from my feelings they are ready to give up everything for the sake of something else. But on one condition – guarantees. A guarantee that life will not become worse than it was. Although this is a very cynical point of view and I don’t like it. I just feel that something is wrong. That is, the goals and desires of the average middle-aged woman are a mystery to me. I already have several examples of such people, and each time I can’t understand what exactly they need. I remember our communication with Serafima, and that, simply endless feeling of a “spare airfield”. I felt it so much and got so tired of it that I decided to just end the communication. And in these cases I simply can’t understand the goals.

We all know that we are given limited access to information, or rather, exactly as much as we should receive. But why so much of it? Is this an experiment on the topic of reactions to various stimuli? Is it just a mystery in oneself? Or so that, in case of something, you can simply disappear from life without leaving a trace?

Objectively, every person, starting communication, has some goals. We never know them. Goals come at different levels. The minimum goal is pleasant feelings from conversations, new acquaintances. Whatever you call it, it still leads to something like falling in love and novelty. In relationships, we try to find those feelings that we do not already encounter in these relationships. The plus and minus here is one – it is all temporary. So a permanent partner plus “falling in love from time to time” is a completely normal course of events. A person’s goals become clear at the moment when we see how much we are allowed to close people. We need to be introduced somehow. How can a woman introduce her husband to another adult man with whom she communicates? Either as an interlocutor (friend), or a lover. There is no third, neutral option. So when she introduces him to her husband, it is a certain openness, when you have a specific role in their relationship. From the opposite – if she does not introduce him, he may not even guess about this communication in general. And in this case, a person’s goals can be anything. Mostly, it all depends on the man “on the other end of the wire”.

So the starting point of the relationship is how official you are made. Although these are all just my thoughts and only…