So strongly and subtly..

My happiest readers (if you can call them that) are here – in my sacred cave. I deleted myself from Threads, cleaned out people on Facebook. And this distinguishes you from them – because here I am with you until the end. I can not be afraid that my posts will be censored or my account will be blocked, I can freely share my thoughts. And this is valuable for both of us – because you have more rights than others. In general, I would make a free Patreon and a paid site. It is more logical, but I’m joking. I don’t want to commit to paying me anything for any content. Only voluntary donations.

There was stress that forced me to do what I did, and I don’t regret it, really. Because I paid more attention to the Ukrainian-language threads, and wrote less here. This needs to be changed.

One aftertaste from childhood played in my head. I loved her very much, but now she is perceived differently…

There are these words, verbatim:

“You want to lay me on the table
Sew me up without a single seam
You want my burning eyes
Stapled with tape… What’s the price?

I’m yours, yours, your model
You’re mine, my Coco Chanel
I’m yours, yours, your model
You’re mine, my Coco Chanel”

And I’m trying to make myself the image I’d be proud of. I’m trying to make my Sa the one I see. It’s like making a book character, only his image is not text, but photos. We will grow together, change. Because it’s not about trying to “preserve yourself” – it’s about the ability to feel comfortable in any circumstances.

The other day we talked with an interesting person. I told her that darkness is closer to me now than light. Therefore, the work will be like this. And the environment. And in general. Night has come in my heart, so I would like to do more work in this style. With frequent notes of BDSM and related topics. Blood? Yes, please!

I do not hide from my demons – I live with them.