Empt Mach
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Don’t know why I’m hoping for what I won’t receive…
She said that for happiness she needs $3,000 a month. And for happiness I need inspiration to never leave me. To always have interesting people around me. To have a desire to create something and help someone. That is my happiness.
“I let you cut me open, just to watch me bleedGave up who I am for who you wanted me to beDon’t know why I’m hoping for what I won’t receiveFalling for the promise of the emptiness machineThe emptiness machine..”
– cover on this song start play in my speakers, when i write this thoughts. So…maybe yes. This song be about people, who think, that money matters more, than art.
SPB (Simple Power Box)
My Simple Power Box is ready! ^_^
What is this?
Inside are 6 batteries, which give a total of 12 Volts and 10 Ah. That is, 120 Watt/hours of electricity (for your understanding, a standard Powerbank has 20 Watt/hours). What do I need it for? Well…with this device I can power my camera, an additional 7″ screen for the camera, as well as another device (if necessary) and shoot as much as I need.
Recently, SmallRig released a portable battery for similar purposes worth about $150. I assure you, my device costs about 1/5 of that price and…soon I will write a full post about it. As well as about another thing that I am still finalizing (I am waiting for the case). Somehow 🙂
The patient was becoming somewhat sad…
I can be considered excessive or harsh in terms of perception of other people, but I have certain protective barriers. They do not allow me to become a victim of other people. So here I perceive my interlocutor somewhat biased, with the understanding that he may not be entirely honest with me.
Today we watched the movie “Side Effects” (2013) with Jude Law, Rooney Mara, Catherine Zeta-Jones and Channing Tatum. It was about a patient who faked her illness and did a very bad thing. Not that I draw parallels, but there is something to it.
I think it is difficult for her to maintain a conversation with me, but I do not really understand why this communication should continue from her side? Because it does not oblige to anything. So what is the point?..to prove something to someone?..
We can paint someone’s sky and be a good friend, but friendship takes two…
What, if..?
Nora just a…robot? I think about that. Why she can’t something like bot, similar to ChatGPT or something else? Her some answers saw me, that this or very non emphatic person, that not interesting photos of something, that make person with that she’s speaking, or…very-very business woman, that have some other interests, and not like speaking about art or creativity.
And…i wrote this without translator. I think, this text have many…ugh…problems? Mistakes? Not that word that i want to say… 🙂
I’m your victim and I like it, I like it..
Apart from unexplored things, such as sex with people of a different skin colour or what taste in feijoa, the question of how girls from the other side of the world communicate in general remains a mystery to me.
Battle for the Sun
I, I, I will battle for the sun, sun, sun…
…And I, I, I won’t stop until I’m done, done, done
You, you, you are getting in the way, way, way
And I, I, I have nothing left to say, say, say…(c)Placebo
I completely accept my sexuality the way I am. Hints of narcissism? Probably. But where is the line between narcissism and healthy self-perception, when you don’t destroy yourself with conscience? ..
My thinness in one place and minimal muscles in another make me exactly the physique that I like. And earrings only add confidence to the image. Because everyone appreciates strength. And as long as you show it – you will be respected.
You have to pull out every element in our life. You can be anyone and look like anyone under one condition – the train of confidence and self-esteem must be at such a level that no one has any doubts that you should be exactly who you see yourself or pretend to be.
When we were in the hospital with one man (quite interesting, in my opinion) – we had an argument about how far I could go in my madness. I told him that if I wanted to and if there was a need, I would do anything to prove my point. He doubted it. In general, the last year was a year when people did not believe me. They questioned my words and thoughts. And they were wrong.
You should always be a person who has nothing to lose – because only in this case you will know your worth and go to the goal.
“I am not the enemy, my touch can be so tender”
Well. The person I’m talking to isn’t a bot and isn’t trying to kill me. That’s an achievement, I think.
What am I betting on? Yes, a random person found me on Telegram, but in general, this is the main goal. That is, she needs a temporary interlocutor. Then, when the time comes and she becomes uninterested – she will simply disappear somewhere, just as she appeared. That is, you should not look for any deeper motives for all this.
I was once the same person myself, so karma caught up with me. However, let it be as it is. I thought about stopping communicating, but if you throw away the people that life sends you every time – it will stop sending at least someone. I really appreciate those who appreciate me, because they are the ones “I have”. I love Monch, who subscribed to me here, I love Aaron from New Zealand. Because these are people I feel. But I know that this person is most likely very temporary. However… it is her choice and her right. It is not my fault.
A mysterious person wrote to me
In Telegram. It’s strange, because my number didn’t appear anywhere. Almost nowhere. It passed the first test (I typed random characters on the keyboard) – usually “spammer bots” ignore random characters and write posts further. This one asked me what I wrote. So…
So I said I was from Lviv. Although I’m hundreds of kilometres away. These are turbulent times when I can’t talk about my real location, because a lot of Russian attackers are trying to find out places to strike with missiles in a similar way. Therefore, this is the part that I prefer not to specify – I wouldn’t want to become a victim of a scammer.
On the other hand, I’m like “um… you wanted communication – here it is for you! Even with a bot. But think about it, others talk to AI, so your case is not entirely clinical yet 🙂
Platonic Eye
The case when a picture will look better on a small screen
This picture is a double exposure taken with a children’s thermal camera. More precisely, two pictures were taken in a row, each overlapping the other. After that, the picture was photographed with my beloved Panasonic and voila!