Inedible Beauty
Saint Creature They are (supposedly) inedible, but oh…how beautiful!
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Why Not?
I am haunted by Vinny’s words that she is scared of my hobby of dressing up as a woman. I explained to her and we understood each other that this is not a hobby of dressing up, but about creating an image that I use for shooting. That is, I need a model – and I become one. But the internal “yin-yang” are constantly dissatisfied with something, and this happened here too, when I was lying in the bathroom yesterday after creativity and thinking that… I can’t stand my dirty (after work) hands.
I feel like some kind of a wimp who walks around in torn clothes, constantly drunk, dirty. Inside, I felt disgusted by the understanding that I cannot make myself “gender neutral” after work – that is, a simple man with just clean, trimmed nails. And I went from the opposite – if there is something that gives me away as “too manly”, something should be opposed to it. So I decided to try painting my nails. Not in the sense of doing a manicure, painting everything in one colour. No. I’m talking about decorating. Today, as an example, I painted half of two nails on each hand. Because I thought it would be interesting that it would look painted on one side, and on the other “with a hint” of the fact that I cracked my fingers with a hammer somewhere, and the nail turned black.
This doesn’t mean that I will constantly and every day come up with something new – no. But if I have a desire, or if there is some design idea – I will implement it. Because this is me – it is a part of me.
I am increasingly reminded of Dizzy from Guilty Gear. I even had the idea of getting a tattoo with her, on one half of the wing where Necro is, write “Saint”, on the other with Undine – “Crea”. Who knows, maybe someday…
I Am Under Water
The idea for this work arose almost immediately when I saw the video for the song Breathe by the band Glass Bridges.
We-we Watered the Flowers With Gasoline
“We-we watered the flowers with gasoline
Now everything’s dying in front of me
I fell in the fire
I love you but I’ll never say so..”(c)Rain City Drive Read More
Boat
Interestingly, when I was looking for these things – they had two purposes. The first of them is for securing a boat. The second is for securing cattle. So, when I fix this on the wall and tie myself to it – I will be something between… a boat and cattle. Am I the only one who sees a figure with a cow’s head in a boat?..
Something better (Than You)
Well. As you can see from the work – I’m a bit bloodied, but still alive 🙂 Read More
Stay
I didn’t have time to write anything before she blocked me. So…I’ll do it here. I don’t think she’ll ever read or see this, just let it be here. Read More
Stronger
“Every time I look in your eyes I feel stronger, stronger
Every time I look in your eyes I feel stronger, stronger
The look in your eyes makes me stronger
Now I can’t wait any longer
So look at me, shine on me
Without that I’m going crazy.
Crazy!”
You can own the body, you can own the heart, you can own the soul. But I always preferred to own the eyes. To fall in love with a person, it is enough to fall in love with their eyes.
For several days, the song Stronger by the Ukrainian band We Are (which is now somewhat different) has been playing in my head and player. After looking at the text (because I am a Ukrainian-speaking person and my English is “so-so”), I liked it. I decided to do some work, and I wanted to start with a reference. But I liked the reference from the phone with the processing, so I decided to leave this work as it is.
I added a second photo – it is from 2013. This is the beginning of our acquaintance with my wife. This photo became the “eye donor”. Strange work? Probably… but do I have different ones?..
“Maybe I’m busy today
But tomorrow I will throw my routine away
You’re my sun I need your light
You’re my charge that I need to fight
Maybe today I don’t have too much
But tomorrow I will give you a sky
You’re my sun I want you to shine
So please don’t ever ever cry!”
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Ps I know you’ll definitely like this song, but it’s her song. Always remember that ^_^
I ain’t got a Bright Side…
“I ain’t got a bright side
Don’t tell me there’s a silver lining
I ain’t got a bright side
Cheer up baby, give us a smile..”
The song by the band Anavae – “Smile” was supposed to be related to another work, but it so happened that I found a rather interesting belt in myself. I wanted to do something dark, not in the sense of blood and makeup, but with a sexual overtone. Unfortunately, due to damage to the electrical infrastructure and lack of light (due to the russian attack), the work turned out to be less than ideal. But it’s better than nothing.
“Tearing out my eyes to rid my temptation
I am lacking affirmations, just grieve, breathe, breathe
You’re making me your art and staying miserable
Will we always gravitate to all the things that make us tortured?
This is getting really boring”
Music Power
I had this idea for quite some time. But something always prevented its implementation – either the lack of a player, or the lack of a “tube with blood”. So I postponed its implementation. And today the stars aligned, and I decided to close this gestalt.
I wanted to do it in a more classical form, but I didn’t like the colours I got, the composition and in general. So I decided to play with the colours and as a result I got what is in the picture. I like that it looks like digital art. It adds a certain artificiality that I needed.
I didn’t add any song to this work or idea, because music is its basis. Those who like music like me will understand what this work is about. So no explanation is needed here 🙂