This is a very, very old photo, about 15 years old. It’s a hole in the roof of one of the abandoned factories in Odessa. No one knows what it’s for, but looking into it from above you see a complete void. I made a processed version of the photo and added the original.
When I read the lyrics of this song, I remembered that photo…
“I don’t wanna be scared But I really don’t get Why do we have to go? I know so many ways But I don’t wanna be saved Why do we have to go?
I try to make my path I don’t know why you left We all need someone I try to let it be You try to make me see We all need someone It’s not easy letting go
Feelings that I don’t know I’m looking for a sign below I’m so heavy We may die young, but that’s okay We can’t go on ’cause we keep falling down down down But that’s alright, it’s alright”
I really like the guitar part in this song…
Sometimes I feel like I keep falling into that black abyss in the photo..
“Looking for your hand, looking for some hope
When the tide comes in we sink so low
We are drowning
I loved you so long, now I need to go
When the waves crash down it gets so cold
We are drowning”(c)Luna Kills
The story of this work is somewhat interesting, because firstly, I am officially launching the “music photos” section. This is when the idea for the picture was inspired by some quote from a song. Secondly, I was supposed to implement the idea yesterday, but my camera, which I was supposed to use to do it, partially broke. So I postponed this idea until today with my second camera.
In general, it was the incident with the camera that made me make this work more “dark”. Although you are darker, considering that there was supposed to be a knife in the other hand? But since it happened and did happen, it seems that, in some ways, it even corresponds to the text more than before.
This picture is a compilation of three of my pictures taken within an hour. The elements are composed in the Gimp application. Tomorrow I will add some funny details from how I actually took it all.
Well. I did not manage to make the drops of blood on the cross and flowing from the cross visible. But I’ll move that to a separate post. For now, that’s it
There are works that I make longer than the shooting took place. So is this one, which is a compilation of two shots. Again, I am in both parts.
I am the killer – I am the victim. This has a certain symbolism when we think about the fact that often the greatest harm is often done to ourselves. And our suffering is caused by our actions or thoughts.
This work is dedicated to the user naked-in-the-rain92. She was delighted with my other similar work. I promised her to do something better. This is still not the result I would be proud of, but it is closer
Although curiosity is not a sin, I’m sure in hell, Texas black bakers will “fry” (read as fuck) me for it. Because I’ve always been curious about other people’s lives. As my ex used to say – when you look in someone’s window – there’s a life in each window. So have I.
I’ve always wondered what kind of people sold the camera – so I often tried to restore the pictures to see what the owners looked like. Once I was sold a laptop that had undeleted nude photos of the girlfriend of the guy who sold it. Bingo, right? Relatively. Because I don’t care what she looked like or what she had between her legs. The experience itself is interesting. The opportunity to observe something personal. And so it was in this case. I wondered what he was interested in. I didn’t expect to find anything unusual. But, oh my God. I saw something that the church would send him to “fry” not far from me for.
Trans porn. Seriously? I asked myself if I understood correctly – yes, that’s right. However, considering what kind of model it was (whoever googles trans porn model – that’s me!) – I wouldn’t mind watching it myself, haha! My type. I’m not trans, but changing clothes today (I only wanted to take a photo of my legs, but I couldn’t resist, because I got a great combo of two types of clothes again), I wondered – I wonder how that person would perceive me in this form? I’m not interested in everything “after”, that is, it’s not about self-esteem of self-sexuality. To put it simply – I wouldn’t want to know if someone fucked me. But let’s imagine that a person comes across a video where I’m in a BDSM costume. It’s not known who I am and what. So, the theoretical chances are more than zero.
Knowing my perverted nature, I probably just want to understand, at least sometimes, that I’m not the only one like this, and that this is a kind of norm. But so far I’ve come to the conclusion that if this is the norm, then only mine 🙂
Sexuality has no gender and no restrictions. The main restrictions are in our heads. I perceive all people as they are. Because I like it when people are real with me. Rich. And I try to be the same in response.
Here’s my work, which I expected to receive. I struggled with the shadow from the camera, had to correct the colours and lighting, but…
P.S. for the sake of objectivity (I told about someone – I have to tell about myself) I myself watch various porn “according to my mood”, so porn with transsexuals did not surprise me much. I am not afraid that my “some wrong” photos will be seen by someone who knows me, because it will be a more “traumatic” experience for them than for me 🙂
It may seem that I only do something strange or “pornographic”, but no. There are also more familiar works. It’s a pity that I can’t upload my video here (at least until it is accepted or rejected for sale), but today there was a test of the new slider. It was an interesting experience. Here is one of the works made during the test
Inside are 6 batteries, which give a total of 12 Volts and 10 Ah. That is, 120 Watt/hours of electricity (for your understanding, a standard Powerbank has 20 Watt/hours). What do I need it for? Well…with this device I can power my camera, an additional 7″ screen for the camera, as well as another device (if necessary) and shoot as much as I need.
Recently, SmallRig released a portable battery for similar purposes worth about $150. I assure you, my device costs about 1/5 of that price and…soon I will write a full post about it. As well as about another thing that I am still finalizing (I am waiting for the case). Somehow 🙂
…And I, I, I won’t stop until I’m done, done, done
You, you, you are getting in the way, way, way
And I, I, I have nothing left to say, say, say…(c)Placebo
I completely accept my sexuality the way I am. Hints of narcissism? Probably. But where is the line between narcissism and healthy self-perception, when you don’t destroy yourself with conscience? ..
My thinness in one place and minimal muscles in another make me exactly the physique that I like. And earrings only add confidence to the image. Because everyone appreciates strength. And as long as you show it – you will be respected.
You have to pull out every element in our life. You can be anyone and look like anyone under one condition – the train of confidence and self-esteem must be at such a level that no one has any doubts that you should be exactly who you see yourself or pretend to be.
When we were in the hospital with one man (quite interesting, in my opinion) – we had an argument about how far I could go in my madness. I told him that if I wanted to and if there was a need, I would do anything to prove my point. He doubted it. In general, the last year was a year when people did not believe me. They questioned my words and thoughts. And they were wrong.
You should always be a person who has nothing to lose – because only in this case you will know your worth and go to the goal.
The case when a picture will look better on a small screen
This picture is a double exposure taken with a children’s thermal camera. More precisely, two pictures were taken in a row, each overlapping the other. After that, the picture was photographed with my beloved Panasonic and voila!
Saint Creature 
