I’m okay but I’m left to question..
Saint Creature When I dream about someone, I have this tradition of asking about what’s going on in a person’s life. I asked. She gave birth to a child. It’s funny. Read More
Saint Creature
Sa is a bad girl?..
I once met a fetishist. What about me? I support the person – I play along with his fetish. In general, I don’t mind being “dirty” today. Because sometimes you need to be like that. Especially since it’s quite innocent.
..and my nails are demonically wonderful…it seems I’m becoming my own fetishist)))
Story about Old Masturbating Grandfather (OMG)
Where does confidentiality end and history begin? I think it’s somewhere here. Because there won’t be any names or information. Just one story.
Nails
Who said that double-sided tape can only be used for sticking phone screens? 
Preparing my nails for my upcoming work. Testing out methods for attaching them to my fingers so they can be removed quickly 🙂
S5
In general, I miss a lot of things now. But I caught myself thinking that I miss my Panasonic S5. I wondered if it was because I wanted a full-frame camera, or the ability to get good results at high ISOs, or a wide angle – and came to the conclusion that I don’t need a Nikon Z5, which costs a relatively penny. I don’t need a Sony with a bunch of its problems. I need my Panasonic, which I’m used to and which gave me exactly the feeling that I like.
I’m sad that now our financial situation is not such that it would allow us to somehow buy any of the cameras. Because the money from my Panasonic S5 was invested in a dream – in the opportunity to earn money and earn money for a new camera. And I know that we will be able to earn money for it in just a month or a half. In the season when there will be an opportunity to work. But there is a little bug that is eating me up because I don’t have a tool for creativity that I am completely satisfied with.
Time will tell how it will be..
5 stages of acceptance
When the emoticon line in Viber matches the mood outside the window..
Not interested
She dropped the voicemail, but I’m not interested in what it was about. I just deleted it and that’s it. Read More
Watched Venus in Furs (2013)
I never cease to be amazed at how strange it is to watch such “theatrical productions” in the form of a movie Read More
I hate
It’s interesting that one of the last, if not the last, posts of the year will be about hate.
I caught myself thinking that I hate the fact that when I look at certain people who either organized a concert for themselves (meaning their own), or something else. And you understand that they were able to do it because they have some acquaintances or friends who helped them do it. In other words, they have this “shoulder” that you have never had in your life.
They say that in a relationship, someone loves, and someone allows themselves to be loved – and sometimes it feels like everything works the same with someone’s help. There are those who help someone, and it’s you, and there are those who just need your help. They are simply not created to help you yourself, even in some small way. Simply because they are not created.
If you look at it more broadly. From the angle that everything in life is based on love – even if it is “blind fanaticism”, it follows that if a person does not love you – they will not want to help you with anything. Because when you love someone – you try to do everything for them. And it turns out that no one loves you.
Every time I catch myself thinking that our relationships (family) are based on that. That for the most part, you can only rely on yourself. There are occasional people who sincerely try to help you, but in a general sense, it doesn’t work that way. With the feeling that you were simply not born with some kind of golden spoon up your ass.
That’s exactly why I’m so attached to people like Kasia, who somehow reacted positively to what I was creating – and that’s it. It seems to you that at least someone has appreciated what others have devalued. And you start clinging to such people. To make an icon out of them.
There is a sense of hopelessness when you realize that there is no solution to all this. Simply because everyone has their own path in life. And if you really can’t touch someone with something that they will like – your path is the path of a loner.
This is sad..