Not the one

I am not the kind of person who received a “blessing from God” and became someone outstanding or simply found my way. I was not lucky in life like some people who had a chance. And I am not sure that there would be at least one person in this world who would sincerely want to help me. Because I am always insufficient for something or someone. I am always not the one to whom a helping hand will be extended. And I hoped in vain and hope that there will be the same person who would help me now in my situation. Because in life you can only hope for yourself. But do you know what is really sad?

People always hope for me and turn to me. And I help them. Without any reason or anything else. I do not take money from almost everyone I help. Where I can, I also help with money or by buying some things myself. And it saddens me that I always give more than I receive. But such is the world. This world doesn’t need me, no matter what. And I’m alive not because of something, but in spite of it.

I’ll have to get out of this country and this situation on my own. Well. But after that I won’t want to help anyone with anything, because I won’t see the point in it. And I’ll always answer – I didn’t get out of there thanks to your help, so don’t count on my help with your problems either. I’m tired of other people’s problems…