Lightness
Saint Creature I noticed that after military service (or rather, the suicide attempt?) lightness with which you write texts disappeared. Read More
April 2025
I’m dizzy from the feeling, I’m dying but still breathing..
“She sits there in silence, she’s too scared to speak
Fighting off the violent thoughts inside her head this week
She’ll never run away from the memories
Nobody can tell that she’s suffering
And she still gets dressed up, even though she’s messed up
(Ah, ah) How many times is this gonna happen?
(Ah, ah) Are we gonna cry alone in the bathroom?
No one knows, no one sees, but I feel it tightening
Baby, I wear it like a choker, I wear it like a choker
In my bones hidden deep, this anxiety in me
Baby, I wear it like a choker, I wear it like a choker”
Jumpsuit, jumpsuit, cover me…
I’m your biggest fan
I’ll follow you until you love me
Papa-paparazzi?..
Empty Room 2.0
Took a picture in the style of the song cover. I like it 🙂
I’m feeling like an empty room…
..And everyone can see right through Read More
A little busy
I’m always ashamed when I come back home (here, in the And) and see that I haven’t written or shared my thoughts in a long time. I’ve been rehabilitating my back, got a job, tomorrow is the end of the first week. Oh. It’s been a long time since I worked somewhere with a schedule, but everything is going easier and better than it seemed. They give me the necessary level of freedom, I give my opportunities. Somehow everything happens. Right now it’s cold here, the temperature outside is close to zero, in places it’s snowing and lying, there’s no heating at work, so we’re working in survival mode until it gets warmer. There I’ll be able to close work issues and hope that then there will be time for my thoughts on the blog and that these thoughts will be in my head, because for now it’s empty.
The week was hard and almost every day at the end of the working day I went somewhere else, returning home closer to 8-9 pm. It’s harder than the work itself. But I’m coping.
I would like to do more, but I don’t have time for that right now. It’s funny, but I was (sort of) blocked on Tumblr, so…fuck it. I don’t really need it. There was no promotion there.
Now I have to check everything by money, because there are certain expenses and there is no way to earn steadily right now. Moreover, one work account was blocked, so there were even bigger problems with money. In general, I just try not to pay attention to everything and live until the moment when everything will be easier because either something will fall apart, or additional sources of income will be found. I’m going to look for goods and sleep, because right now this is more important than anything else. I hope to write a couple of posts on the main blog soon. I love you all. See you soon 🙂
Beyond the Garbage
An interesting effect that seems to give you a peek into…garbage on my desk 🙂
It’s strange, it’s funny, but…
The first tick I ever had to remove from myself was from my..penis.
Whether it was my luck or a coincidence that I spent all my time in a ditch somewhere. In any case, I will remember this story for a long time… -_-
Strangers connect tonight…
..But we don’t know why?