..While you are still sleeping, while you are still me…

..the problem with working at night was that sometimes I would just turn on a song, play it in a loop, humming it softly to myself…and an hour or two would pass like that…

An interesting fact about this song was that not only did I drop it off to her, but I also sent her a voiceover, humming the lines. Life in the moment, that’s what I would call it. But that’s not what it’s about. You understand, right? In my perception, everything is deeper in intimacy than any sexual acts? So that I can do that. But the further I went, the more I realized that… I didn’t want to give it to her. To pin it on her.

“..a white empty hotel,
a night as white as the ceiling,
a white warm bed –
we are face to face,
the ocean whispers…
and we walk barefoot,
through a warm downpour..”

Sometimes songs somehow resonate with us too much. More than they probably should. And they become a part of us, a part of our history. It’s like a tattoo that you have engraved on your body. Listening to the lines, you can no longer change your emotion towards them. You can give them color, associating them with a certain person, but the emotion they evoke is unchangeable. Why did I change my mind about who this song will be about for me?..the answer is hidden between the lines.

“..I write to you about all my dreams –
I pour out my quiet salty sadness,
sometimes it seems – you are my child,
and I write to you –
because you are me.
because you are me…”

There are things that you can’t take in two ways. They speak for themselves. And when I got that job, I realized what it was about – it was about this. It was about the emotion that a person carries within themselves. It was about a universe that you understand. A universe that you are on the same wavelength with.

The author of the song wanted it to get a second life in some kind of duet. So that the last part would sound in a man’s voice. Yau is such an answer. For myself, I decided that for me this song would not be associated with one person.

“..I write to you while you are mine,
I write to you while you are still sleeping,
I write to you because you are me,
because you are me,
because you are my love..”

For me, it will be associated with two people. I would like it to be dedicated to two important people for me. Without dividing into. And no one else..

“..I want you to shine,
I want you to shine,
I want to read your letters,
I want to feel all your letters
to me –
and all the words fly like seagulls in the sky!..”