I walk this empty street..

Saint Creature August 20, 2025 No Comments

…On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams

There are cases when you can understand my mood from the lyrics of the song I attached. So I warn you right away that the opposite is the case here 🙂

The situation has leveled out, and I call it “friendly love”, when you treat a person as a brother or sister. With some warmth in your soul and in a calm state. In general, it resembles some kind of disease that you have to get over. Sometimes the condition improves, sometimes it worsens. And two options – either you die, or you recover and will be stronger. This immunity will not be for other people or a similar situation. But it will allow you to feel comfortable in the conditions that you are in now.

In fact, I am glad that everything is like this. And if in marriage there are certain “critical” years, then in my friendship with someone these are, more often, critical months or weeks. If you get through them – it is easier for you. I perceive people and situations more easily. And this is better for everyone. So… a warm journey for us in our relationships. She is a very kind and close person, and I feel it. Perhaps it would be more accurate to say this – she is as close now as she can be and can afford to be. And we also have interesting musical tastes 🙂

This Is The End

Saint Creature August 14, 2025 No Comments

“This is the end
So long my friends
Stars always seem to fade
It’s a little to late to…
With bloodstained hands
I make amends
Stars always seem to fade
It’s a little to late to start over again”(c)The Warning

In general, this is the end of this relationship. Quiet, calm. As if nothing is finished, but, in general, no one obliges me to somehow more or less meaningfully respond to comments.

Sometimes, to understand that you and a person are at different poles, you need a little more. A couple of words, a couple of days. A couple of thoughts. There are certain things that trigger me. This is the fact that a person has a secure life, and she “doesn’t know what to do”, and you think whether she will be able to earn money somewhere, or whether it would be easier to shorten her life. And already at this point you have strong disagreements. Yes, we are united by the view on creativity (in places) and music, but otherwise… you can never cling to a person just because they like what you create. You need to cling to those who, first of all, inspire you with their creativity. Who lives it.
She was unpleasant to communicate by e-mail. And it was felt. She replied because she felt obligated, but overall it’s not her topic. It’s sad. I also know she didn’t visit this blog, so thoughts were always freely expressed here. Because you’re not interesting enough to a person to delve into this world.

I think that communication exclusively in the realm of creativity is the little that can be left. But I bet it will last until the “next victim” who again wants more active communication. And she will switch to someone else. Only a matter of time…

However, I still came to the conclusion that this is really a passion for my work. Looking at the reaction to other people’s work. However, again, what difference does it make?..I can give her what she needs, but I don’t get what I need..