Don’t promise that we will be together forever here, in joy and sorrow…

Because our souls are no longer here to heal them,
the incurably ill…

I was driving today and listening to this song. Moreover, I allowed myself to sing it openly. I felt sad that I had no one to share the music that inspires me with. I didn’t see a response from the people I shared it with. And I came to the conclusion that there was simply no one to share it with. At the same time, I wondered – what was stopping me from sharing it before…with myself? Here, in the space of a blog that reflects my thoughts and tastes.

“I’m so used to being alone
This emotional abuse
Missing pieces
In the constructor of madness

Only people save someone
To penetrate the head
Only the entrances are walled up
In those concrete barricades

Gathering together is
a hopeless endeavor for fools.
My pain is my inspiration, where salvation is
emergency therapy.

Please stay, I gave you the last one
Or leave me in dry land
As always I’ll figure it out myself
Chronic fatigue, I’m tired of being sick with you

Please go, I’ve caused so much pain.
What a pity that we’re only apart.
A beautiful place awaits us both there.
Heartbreak, it’s time to let you go.

Our love
without water is like abandoned flowers
Like thoughts in the head
But where to put them?

In fact, this is a song about loneliness. It is so familiar to me now. I am not enough for people and I don’t want to “be enough” for them. But the fact is that there are few people who would inspire me with themselves right now. I would be glad to see someone nearby, but everyone is far away. And the question is not even that they are physically distant. They are spiritually distant, distant in thoughts. It is felt very much. Therefore… I share myself.

I like the emotions of this man in the video. Gestures. Movements. He is strange, probably from the general perception. But I am strange too. Kapitonov was once perceived as strange, and then I fell in love with his work. The same here. So, I will probably share with myself. Well… and with you, of course 🙂

…and this is the same artist who always answers my stupid questions on Instagram right away. This is valuable.